Behold...The Ten Commandments

^^hehe

It started out wit goin to her place to meet wit her...then we went to Petaling street to take my specky...on d way she was angry bcos i was angry wit the incident happened yesterday...

Well wat happened  yesterday? well...her action makes me think and feel tat i am not important to her...that is y i am angry...but its not anybody's fault...but mine bcos it is i who cannot take it and not her...and its ok and common for her to do so...it is appropriate since we r jz best and close frens...

Bck to petaling street...we went to have fish porridge, wit pig innards and yew char kuey...and oso a cup of leong char...haha...well we both agree that it is not very nice as declared by many...especually by the book tat we bought at sunway the otherday...haha...

then we went to sinn optic to take my spec...it was not bad lar...at least got talk wit uncle keong for a period of time...well...i noticed tat time really can eat things up...slowly and slowly...and in the end...poofs...u r gone...

then i did something tat even surprice me...i bought her favourite flower...and also one of my favourites...sunflowers...hehe...for me sunflower really reflect herself...she always smile...and strong and always stand up for herself and her frens...*briefly only..

then we did something v both neva did b4...we watch three movies...at three different places...1st we stop at berjaya time square...we wanted to watch step out 2 but bts dint show anymore...so we watch ah long pte..haha...the movie is so meaningful and educating...it really open the eyes of those who have "single" minded perception toward things...well...she and i...really enjoyed the movie...that s wat connects us...one of the many things we had in common...

then we went to mid valley...bcos i knew mv had many many cinemas...surely step out 2 still showing...and bingo...we watched step out 2...well...again...this wat connects us together is we both have passion for dancing...hehe...*she like salsa and latin?well well...tats sweet...haha...we also take this opportunity to take a tour at The Gardens...hmn...really impress me...but not really take my breath away...we dine at sushi king at last...1st time went to ground floor sushi king...hehe...and she bought herself yeah magazine...she loved mayday so much until she wanna to buy the magazine...and join the contest in hoping to win two ticket to watch mayday...wow...so so...*out of words...but it is a good thing...wish her luck and wish me too...for if she won...i have a piece of it oso...haha...

then we went to wan u ...we watch 10,000 BC...well well...hmn...the oni thing tat i can remember is when dleh told evolet something about the brightest star in the sky...hahaha...

well after wan u ...we went to nasi lemak panas... to have dinner cum supper...

the rest...too tired to say d ...hahaha

chances...

well chances after chances had been given but in the end...people still do not appreciate them...that is human i guess...

for the past few days i learned alot...but learned does not mean that we will change...that is the funny part...y people do not change for the best when we learned our lessons? y do we stick to the same old habit when we know it is not good for us? fear? anxiety?

Well...one thing i didnt expected is someone bought me a t- shirt...and gave me a card..well that is new...no matter how much  i appreciate it ...i still do not cannot find the "thing" the feeling that is making my heart felt emphty...i wonder what is that i need to fill up that hole...

here i wan to thz to those who let me help them...at least they gave me the chances...i guess i love to be trusted and to trust people...ang also...to do what i said and they do wat they said...i guess people are like that again...i was wrong to assume...that she is the kind who will remember and do what ever she said...but in the end..assuming can be a dangerous game...and mayb i am too ignorant to know when she is kidding...and when she is not...that is my weakness i guess....for taking things seriously when a person is important to me...*sigh...

in the end...there r a few things left to settle...wish me the best..and pray that i will survive this again...for my part i will do my best and leave the rest to higher power...GOD bless everyone and neva gv up...ganbatte!!!

^^

martian child...

Well been waitin for almost a year for this movie...quite dissapointed actually...not wat i expected to be...but it is overall well done i muz say...

went to watch with ym...actually i forgotten whom i suppose to watch wit...but one thing for sure my defend mechanism already choose to forget it so it must be someone not worth or important to remember it...rite?

back to the movie...well from my point of view...like in the movie...every child that is born into this world are like little aliens...they are all new to the world...the people and things around them and they need time to adjust to them...well...it is pity when one person feel tat he does not belong in any place...on this planet...it is just darn pity...maybe because i know the feeling...maybe you too...or mayb he too...or she too...but in the end...we still end up feelin we do not belong to this world...

in all...we just need to be ourself...and there are people in this world...somewhere somehow are always there waitin for us to find them...well...at least that is wat i believe...good day everyone...tk cr and Godspeed!cheers!!! hug hugz

The world belongs to us…

The world belongs to us…

Belong to each and every one of us who is standing on it…

We breathe the same air …

We drink from the great rivers…

What makes us different is how we look at things…

I wonder if I am alone in this big planet called earth…

I don’t know but I know I am not fit to live among other human…

Or maybe I just haven’t found those people whom I call family…

The place where I call home…

The feeling which I call love and belonged…

I don’t know but I believe that somewhere someday some how…

There is a place for me to dwell in…

Without sacrificing myself to the person I am not…

To become what I am made of…and not what I learned to be…

The greatest joy in my life is to be what I am to be…

What God had made me for…

The purpose of my existence…

The destiny that holds for me even before the world is made…

I can’t just believe I am here for nothing…

Or maybe just to fertile the soil…

To feed the grass and trees

To provide the bare necessities for other living things…

Is there even a philosophy called one for all and all for one?

Well I do believe that once upon a time…

But now…it seems so far…

*out of words…

Trust in God if you have one…trust in you self if you know who you are…believe and hold tightly in what you believe…hope what you have dream…never stop hoping and believing…for that is the only thing that keeps us burning inside…the fire that keeps us burning…to fuel our loss emotion and strength which challenges and obstacles have dried us up…

In all nothing can’t beat a man who have the will to do what ever he puts his head into it…there’s a road if there’s a will…they all said…believe or not its our choice…we made our own choices…its our life…all the best for those who is struggling out there…to find a hole or a place to fit in…never give up hope…never give in to hardship…Ganbatte! Cheers and peace…hugz!

Dedicated to someone whom treated me as friend before I left her behind…

A friend name…Leong Yih Ing.

Finally...

Finally done all d things i said i would do...but deep down...y there is such agony?hmn...i dunno...once more life goin to change...will i go tru this time?

there she goes...

well...finally she went back to fetch her sis to look for house...only one thing disturbs me...she didnt sleep!!! how is she goin to drive? oh well...cannot control what i cannot control...let it be ba...hope the best and trust wit all i got...isnt tat the way to love?haha

well...me wan to sleep...but cant sleep...dunno y...i hate this when it happenes...bcos things tat i can control oso i cannot manage well...oh well...tats life again...

today i am free still...relax...as ms keng love to said...hahaha...jz for now...mon will be bz bz  bz again...
and ya...when i give people keys for safe keepin...tat means i trust tat person very much...so if u reject my offer...it will mean tat v r not close frens o...so keep tat in mind...muahahaha...

well guys...tk cr n all d best...and Eugene Chew! dun die on me...keep on goin o...ganbatte and tk cr... hugz = )

there are things that meant not to say to u...

well...she said tat i kept on askin her to leave...but deep down...who wants to let people go d...for sure i wun lor...especially someone meant something to me d ... but sometimes there are times we need to let go d...if she love something so much then why dun go ler...its not like everytime got this things d ... and also i wun go either even thought how i like or love it too...bcos i know...i cant be at peace wit myself if i go...

hahahahahaha...so ironic eh...well well...i dunno wat to say about myself...but at least i did something i felt its right...phew...wat a day...

oh ya bought some food stuff for rm 16++ dunno can survive untill wat day hahhaha...i wan to exp wat my dad exp...my mum always said at the end of the month...last time...my dad would save save bcos the salary not out yet...hehehe...

well...i still struggling to find the other part of me which gone missin...the one wit more confidence...more stern in doin things...the more rational one...

oh ya...i finally took back my motor keys from ah loh ... bcos i gave chance after chance...but in the end...he still fails me...how could i give my motor to someone who is not responsible ler? i always leave my motor wit full tank...but whenever i wan to use it...it alwalys near empthy d ... haiz... 1st of all i didnt use it...he used it...mayb he got put petrol...but in the end he still use it not me r...i cant always pump petrol then let other ppl use mar rite? and the last call its when he told me the motor petrol is goin to empthy when i said i wan to use the motor...if he gv me money to pump mayb i wun take it back yet...well wat is done is done ba...anyhow...he is still ah loh...^^

sometimes human r like this...taking things for granted...me oso r...got so good punya supervisor but still dunno how to appreciate...hahahaha...nevermind...now know d ...still not late ba...

Eugene Chew...!!! Do watever u wan...as long as u noe wat u r doin...dun let ure guard be down...keep alert at all time ya! dun gv up in watever u believe it...dun b afraid of loosing...be brave to accept it and strive to be better next time... Think for ureself...think for others...be balance@##!!

Good morning...

The sky is grey...the breeze is chilly...reminds me of Tim Burton's theme...

Tim Burton's works...wat can i say? its fantastic and really suit for me...not to mention Adam's Family...aiks...i guess i am attracted to the so called not good things and evil stuff...why why why...but i really love the feeling comin from it...

yesterday nite talked wit my taiping fren...she's having problem...well...i  cant even help her wit anything...hahaha...but friends outside of UTAR and friends inside UTAR (especially my own coursemate) have a big difference...the more i study about human beings...the more i have interest in...but somehow my enviroment pulls me down...and makes me feel sick and tired of human beings...at times...bcos of the things they do...so ironic...ya i know...

well i do not know what to say...but i seriously miss The lord of the rings...i wan to watch...i forgot wer i put the cd d...T_T

my sis sms me this morning...lately dunno wats happeneing to her i jz hope she will be fine...

oh well...life goes on...life goes on...what is life actually i really need to reconcider it ... bcos there is no absolute yes and no question to this...rite rite?

For we human are made out of flesh and blood...

Prone to sickness suffering and death itself...

Humans are made strong because of this...

we should be proud and strive even harder than before...

for we are unique and special...

to be the protector of the world...

and to be the citizen of the world to come...

we are the human who will be the last guardian of the things left...

in this so called mother earth...and the galaxies beyond...

may God be wit us...always and always...amen.

Career Fair 2008 JobsDB

today went to career fair...wit tx and wen han...was fun and nice...felt jz like yesterday everything tat happened for the past 3 years...Lrt...Klcc...hmn...

Career fair was fun...alot of things to explore and c there lor...and got some nice nice people too...oh well i also send my on9 resume like nobody bussniness...hahaha Well we had our dinner there ... but awwww tarbush is not there d...too bad...oh well...life goes on...

Went to Isetan...saw alot of cute cute things there...one of them is a "teegeer" light pen...it is so cute and i cant help buyin one...well this will be a reward for someone if she can do her assignments on time...hehe...

Lately dunno y...spend on food like breathing...hehe...so fast goin to out of cash d ... but nevermind lar...this few days safe safe a little lor...i oni got will get my money on the 4th...*hopefully

Then when i back i tot of goin to her place to c how s her progress but in the end...i wait until i end up chattin wit the security guards at my place...one from nepal and another from bangla...we chatted about alot of things but mostly about our own beliefs...one is muslim...another is hindu...wat a combination...ya sometimes life is like this...so mysterious and interesting lor...hahaha

well in the end...after i receive her last sms ...i dunno wat to reply d ... i guess i am on the process to move on...little by little...goin to let go lor...even though she asked me before if i can spare my time to miss her...but now wat i can say is not anymore lor...bcos i will jz treat it as a joke ba...bcos i cant c there r two way...all d sudden...i am protective again...hahaha...jz two more days...then it will gradually over lor...cross my fingers...i will pass this stage...again...

oh ya ...this morning...i wake up late...was thinking of having breakfast wit her...but she dint reply either...and offer her a ride to school...and yet rejected...said following her neigbour coursemate...so ok lor...then i said to myself wat am i doin r ... i shouldnt hv think abt tat instead shud go to class and ask for Ms.Geraldine forgiveness and to do wat i suppose to do...and you know wat...i really did tat...^^ so proud of myself...

and i really thank Ms.G for being so understanding (like always) and not judgemental...*hug hug hugs...and she gave me to sign the attendance somemore even though initially i think ii have no right to sign the attendance...*more hugs...this sem dunno y ... feel closer to Ms.G compare to last few sems...hahaha...i startin to respect and like her more...*ahem...in my life...only few mentors can really touch my heart and change my perspective towards life...and i am sure Ms.G is one of them...

ya ya another thing...during career fair only one job strikes me the most...tat is star cruise personnel assistant...wah....after hearing wat we need to do in tat position...we three get so excited...wah wah wah cant wait to get that job...hehehe...

Well...i jz hope and pray tat watever i do...i do it truthfully and do my best in wat i do best! Eugene Chew!!! ganbatte! All d best! Yosh!

stresS?

felt so tired...helpless...and cant concentrate on doin anyting oso..funny... need help...but dunno wer to turn to...or even how to ask for help... becoming zombie soon...